You're not alone

Hello again everyone! I was gone for a while but, hopefully, I'm back now. Honestly, I just haven't felt like blogging. A lot of stuff has been happening these past months. I'm actually starting to feel like myself again though, so that's good!

One of the hardest things were some deaths which occurred, 3 of which I feel I could have prevented, 2 of those were suicides and 1 of those people actually visited our house often - so I should have noticed something was wrong, but I didn't. I dedicate a lot of my time to making sure people know they are loved, and I hate knowing there are people out there who feel alone - right this moment, people are taking their own lives - if only they knew I am here for them and I love them. I know it sounds crazy but I do love everyone on this planet as if they were family. Those who know me will know that my words are important to me and I only say things I mean, so I'm being honest by saying I love everyone. Even you, reading this right now. I may know you, or you may be a lurker or just someone passing by, it doesn't change anything. So it really shook me when I failed 3 times in these past few months to do what I feel is my main reason for existing.

The reason I told you that (which is a bit personal for my blog, I don't usually blog about deaths or personal things in my life that much), is that I need you all to know that you have a sister here who cares about you. No matter what your age, gender, etc is - please know that I am here for you as a sister and you're loved. If you, or anyone you know, needs to talk, feels lonely or sad, etc, message me on Facebook. I check my junk folder often. I always say this but I want to say it again incase some of you don't know. Everything is confidential, of course. 

So, yeah, now I'll just get on with blogging, I guess!

I've been just doing normal stuff these past months, I didn't really take many photos though, here are some photos from a random day:

Pink!

I remember on this day I got drunk (what's new there?) and in this photo I was pretending I had a penis:

Immature as ever! Then we went for a drunken walk in the countryside but it was too cold so we came back early:

Happy Belated Easter to everyone! Neton made me some Easter eggs:

He said they didn't turn out the right shape but it was so thoughtful!

This has to be the poshest Easter egg I've ever seen!:

It was delicious too! I took the photo from Google because it's better than the ones I took!

I bought a pink wig from Ebay but it's nothing like the photo - oh well!:

It's supposed to be light-to-dark-pink gradient. However, it's just light pink hair on top of an ugly reddish-pink colour.

Yesterday, I started feeling a little better. My creativity, spontaneity and positivity have been pretty much lost for these past months but yesterday I felt like a fraction of them came back to me. I've started feeling a bit like myself again, which is why I'm back. I believe that I'll improve quicker from here on!

I even tinselled my hair:

Unfortunately, you can't see it much in the following photos!

We just went to our local pub, but it was so warm! We were outside for most of the night, even though it was raining! They had the fires on inside too! We felt like we walked into a furnace! When we were inside I had to keep using my fan to stop my face from melting! It's lucky that I carry it with me!

Afterwards, we went to get more alcohol and then went deep into the countryside. But OMG, it was so scary! It was ridiculously foggy!

When Neton was driving we could barely see the road in front of the car! When we were in the countryside though, it was pitch black! Like, seriously, we could not see anything. There were no stars, or if there were they were hidden by the fog. Remember that in the countryside there are no street lights or anything, we couldn't see the moon so it was BLACK! We couldn't see each other and it was so scary because a ghost or monster could have killed us/possessed us and no one would hear our screams and also, we wouldn't see anything coming! So, yeah, we didn't stay long in the countryside last night - I was too freaked out! Haha >_<

We headed home, taking photos along the way, of course! I love the background in this photo, ignore my face!:

So, yeah, that's about it for now! I apologise for my absence and, hopefully, I'll be back to my old self in no time! <3