Something that needs to be said

So, something has been bugging me a lot lately. The 'human dolls' craze that is currently going on in the world. The craze itself isn't bugging me, nor are the girls - they all look fantastic.

What's bugging me is when I constantly hear "Oh, you've copied that Russian girl" etc.

It was the final straw yesterday, when I was out walking Luna and asked a random woman what time it was. She said "I love your makeup, you're copying that style aren't you? That Russian barbie style. You've got the lenses and everything just like her, even the bindi. You've done really good." ....

That's the part that's bugging me. I've looked like this for over 5 years. It's so frustrating to constantly hear how I'm copying someone when I've put years of my life into this style. I've been here with it, as it developed across the world and in Japan. When I first started out, there weren't many resources for us to use. The only extreme ones were manba, that we knew about. And now these girls come along, see it and copy it (I'm not saying from me, but from anyone). They didn't have to work with it, they just picked up the final product and slapped it on their faces. Which isn't a bad thing at all, they all do it so well and are like a million times prettier etc. I just wish people would stop thinking I'm copying them, when I've put so much effort in.

Anyway, I never even heard about these human dolls until about one month ago when I got back from Romania. I saw lot's of comments about the show I was on saying "She's a fake valery and Anastasia" (Can't remember their names). The thing is, I was really proud of the 'big eye makeup'. I had never seen it done before, not even in Japan (The extreme big eyes). I had like an epiphany moment when I thought of it and tried it out for the first time. I was so proud of it. I'm not saying the 'anime girl' stole the idea from me. There were probably people who did it before me! But it's heartbreaking to hear how I've 'copied' it from someone who only recently started doing it. Also, there's a fan page that is pretending to be me. It posts on a 'Human Dolls' fan page and 'likes' lots of other pages. I just want you all to know, that isn't me!

But here is what I actually wanted to write this post about:

I was recently approached by someone who claimed they wanted to become a sort of manager for me. They claimed they work with those two main girls and could put me up there with them. The only problem was my personality. They told me I would need to 'act more strange to match your appearance'. They said I'm 'too down to Earth' and it's off-putting to people because it ruins their fantasy. They told me I would need to claim I was extremely spiritual and act 'much more superior' to other people. I'd need to create a 'tight-knit' friendship with the other 2 girls. They also basically said I should stop talking about Japanese Gyaru fashion and not give credit to outside sources (where I get my inspiration from). They said I should play on the fact I'm Hindu and become an 'animal-loving vegetarian'...... they can't have researched me too well because I am already an animal loving vegetarian! 

It wasn't just the personality though, they offered to pay for surgery to change my face and body. That part was just casually slipped into the conversation though, like it's obvious they'd expect me to have it done.

I'm not saying this is what happened to these girls, but I can guarantee it won't be happening to me. I felt like I needed to share this with you. We should never let our appearance define who we are. I've always said I'll never let anyone change who I am as a person. I just want to put a sort of warning out there for everyone in case you get 'scouted' or whatever.

I don't know if I'll get in to trouble for publishing this, it's obvious why they told me to keep it a secret but my conscience got the better of me.

You never know, this could have been a scam or something. It seemed very real and they were very convincing (the person who contacted me), but just don't take all of this as a definite truth!

I'll be updating soon <3